I Miss You But...

We've all been in those experienes where our feelings bind us to our situations, making it so hard to let go...classic battle of mind vs heart...Do I listen to my rationale and what I know is best for me?  Or do I stay beccause it hurts too much to leave?  You ignore red flags, and you tolerate the misery, and when you finally muster the strength to gain control of the situation, your feelings are questioned.  Just because I make a decision to feed my best interests, doesn't mean that my feelings have been altered, but the stance has to be taken....

"I Miss You But..."


My decision to leave the leaves of love’s tree on the ground does not remove the origin of the leave’s seed, my feelings

My feelings allowed the wheeling of my heart’s handicapped chair to roll uphill to lover’s lane and roll back down to hit the dead end of love’s remains

The brutal drop popped my heart muscle, but it survived, but now goes back to its disabled state, compromised

Confined to the chair due to its crippling frame, the choice to roll over the lifeless leaf is made

Doesn’t mean I don’t miss or want you, but that the waving red flags will not be lowered to your destructive raid

You won’t raid the peace my spirit has laid

You won’t raid the comfort my soul has been blanketed with

You won’t raid the stretched skin that’s been securely stitched

You won’t raid the strength of my characteristic flaws

You won’t raid the legitimacy of my defining laws

You won’t raid the generosity of my selfless heart

I’d rather rip the leaf and plant a fresh new start