A Silent Love ( A Poem for Dani)

This was actually a response to a poem I wrote about my dad and a fellow poet of mine was so intrigued by the situation he wanted to know more about it so we talked and I filled him in. Answered questions. Whole nine. So an event came up where we had the opportunity to ghost write from the inside perspectives of other poets and he chose me and this is what he came up with. I loved the piece and thought I would share since I never have.

The words I wish I could hear from you…
I’ll never get the chance to hear…
cancer taking your voice
and before now I never knew you had a voice!
Like my life was put on credit and you were given an invoice
that read;
“Take care of your seed whenever you damn well please!”
Now…
now with now words or sounds from your lips
we communicate through written words…
and do you know how long I’ve been waiting to hear you speak words…
how long I’ve waited to hear your voice
but now you voice, your voice sounds a lot like a lost breeze to me
never makes a sound unless someone listen…
and I’ve been trying to listen to you since I was little!
Since I’ve meet you but how did you not want to meet me…
the daughter you helped create
the life you help make
but now when your weak…you call me…to help you in your time of need
no wonder my hearts weak
you’re the reason why my heart skips beats
when I think of what you’ve done to me…

Showed me how not to love,
what to watch out for when dating
you cared more about your daytons than your daughter
cared more about your liquor than my life
more about your hoes than your wife!
It’s like…it’s like I never existed
and when I finally did…
on the inside…
on the inside I felt like it was too late!

No words…
no words ever came from your lips
but I’ve witnessed you makes sounds in your younger days
but you never made sounds towards me
and now I’m more confused than ever…
trying to do what writes
to a man who’s done nothing in my life!
but no matter how much wrong you’ve done,
no matter what hell and high water you’ve been through
I forgive you!

I will always be here for you,
trying to love you like you never loved me
and I know it pains you deeply
to never be able to speak those words to me,
but as long as I can dream…
and as long as you can write…
I’ll put your voice on ever written word you write
see how God delivered you into my life.

Making us share my passion for the pen
how we write novels of love long songs
so beautiful that they belong in Psalms
they would make Solomon blush!
You may not can speak
but we deliver deadly sound waves
that make the ground shake when write on this page
we laugh though hugs,
kiss through exclamations points
and at this point…
I’m just a little girl who loves her daddy more than ever
happy to share this time with him….
happy that he shares it through me,
and even though for a long time I told myself for you I would never have sympathy
you’ve reminded me…
how to Honor you…how to look into your eyes
and even though you can say…
you write it!

And I want you to never forget that it’s the days with you that get me through
so you don’t have to say it…cause
actions speak louder than words
Love isn’t said it’s shown and I…well…
I LOVE YOU TOO!